I don't think there's any doubt in anyone's mind that I love lessa and Dragon M . If there is.....you need hitting over the head with a baseball bat. Really.
I'm doing this publically because I think everyone needs to know where they stand, that's been one of the major issues lately. I feel that everyone knows what's going on except me, I'm tired of deciphering blog postings to try and find out how people are, if they're ok. And lessa is in the totally uneviable position of trying to do the right thing and feeling awful no matter what she does. As of today, I'm no longer DragonM's fox. I'm just fox. I'm proud of the person I'm becoming, and will keep that name. But the cost of anything beyond that is just too high. I'm not prepared to lose good friendships, which is what we're in danger of doing.
DragonM is hopefully still one of my friends, and I hope I've stopped the damage in time to avoid losing lessa as a friend too. I am submissive, and that is something I'll need in my life. But with the right man. No matter how much of a right man DragonM is/was, it was the wrong circumstances. And I'll find someone else. In time.
We've all talked, and hopefully everything will be ok.
We'll see.
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About Me
- clare
- An unowned English submissive, who is rather a painslut ! I'm happily married with two wonderful children. I'm very lucky to have shared time with some lovely Doms in the past, and have learnt a lot. I've also learnt just as much from my lovely submissive friends - sometimes even more. The right Master for me is out there.....but he'll have to be one hell of a good one *smiles
For lessa....
A pure flower...for an angellic sister !
The ideal gift....
7 comments:
hugs... we've talked about this a lot today but, like you said, sometimes its important for things to be public. No-one should doubt how much you love both DragonM and lessa.....I've certainly witnessed that myself.
I know how hard it was for you to come to the decision that you would no longer be DragonM's fox. It is a wise decision, and one I believe with all my heart to be the right one for you all. Lessa was not the only one in the position of feeling she would never get this right, whatever she did....I know you felt that too, and probably even DragonM did.
The testament to this decision will be the continuation of a friendship I know you all value....a friendship which has the potential to stretch way beyond bdsm, and which each of you has a responsibility to protect now.
You are right that you will find someone else in time. The right man WILL be out there for you babes, and the right circumstances. You more than anyone know my views on fate.
with love, hugs and continued friendship to you, lessa and DragonM.....xxx
Oh, Clare, you've taken a huge step toward your own very exciting future today... a step perhaps away from the old and toward the new... though you are never, ever walking away from those who love you and are your truest friends... Lessa and DragonM and M;e (and me) will always be there for you, as long as you want them, and/or me.
But this is a good, positive, self-affirming first step toward the rest of your life... you;ve learned what you could from DragonM and it is time to step out on your own for the rest of what lies waiting for you...
I love you, sweetie, and I am so totally supportive of the decision you have made and the public way you chose to do it. bravo, kiddo, bravo... and huge hugs and I raise a glass of Bailey's to you tonight!
Love always,
Tiggs
clare... as I said yesterday in our chat, I will say here again... I do love you... and if you have any doubts about that I will bring that baseball batt over!!!
the last months have been tough on all of us... and that's an understatement... I learned a huge lesson... that I should not force you, me or DragonM to be who we are not...
but I know I love you... and those wonderfull girls of you...
hugssssssss and a big kissssssssss
huggs you all.
lessa and DragonM have given me an incredible amount of joy, and I've learnt a tremendous amount.
And lessa..the girls adored all three of you too *smiles
Thank you for everything you gave us. It was a great few months....France being one of the memories I will always hold dear.
And its true...none of us should force anyone to be anything theyre not. Likewise, no-one should be forced to NOT be what they are.
hugggsss
dear clare,
though a hard decision it's also a wise one i think. For now you still can be friends with DragonM and lessa and you all can look each other in the eye.
i wish you all the luck strength and love you need ánd deserve girl.
xxx sweet greetz, mo
Clare, I will always be your friend. I am proud you still keep the name fox. In time you will find your Master. I have no doubts about that.
DragonM
huggs mo...thank you so much, that means a lot. xxxxx
DragonM - thank you for all you taught me, I don't think you realise how much I actually learnt from you, and you can be sure that what I learnt, I will carry forward into my next D/s.
The sad thing is that I take too much notice of what other people think - people who have never met me in real. Many have formed less than favourable opinions of me over this, leading to comments about coveting and jealousy after knowing only one side of a story.
The main lesson I have learnt is to make sure that I listen to my own instincts when I feel that something is wrong, and not allow myself to be told that no - everything is ok.
If I had known more of the conversations that were going on about me, and about the situation, then I would have stopped being your fox quite a while ago.
The good thing is that my friendship with M:e is still strong - I know how much value you place on that friendship. She has been a wonderful friend to us all in this.
Huggs for DragonM.....you will always be my friend, and you will always be my daughter's knuffel beer. *grins
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