End of the line....

I’ve shared some great times on Positive Submission, and some not so good times. But sadly, it doesn’t feel like the home it used to. I don’t feel as comfortable as I always have before.

So, it’s time for me to move home.

I have a new blog ‘Embracing my Submission’ where I plan to explore my submission, and share my life further, hopefully taking old friends along with me to my new abode. So please bookmark and update any links to me.

www.embracingmysubmission.blogspot.com

Thank you everyone for all everything we’ve shared on Positive Submission. I have an amazing future in so many ways, and hope to share that with you all too. I will be keeping this site live, because I do have good memories here. On my new site I intend to be more 'me', not try to match people's expectations of me.

May we share much more on ‘Embracing my Submission’.

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Happiness is.....

Today....

** playing with the girls
** older daughter having a haircut and colour that she loves!
** younger daughter going to a birthday party and having a wonderful time
** serving roasted salmon with a honey glaze, garlic italian roast potatoes, followed by the most gorgeous italian chocolate truffle torte
** receiving a wonderful phone call from two great friends in Canada
** receiving another wonderful phone call from a certain Someone who is away for the weekend on a Scout camping trip but was thinking of me and wanted to say hi


......and knowing that tomorrow will be more of the same

*smiles

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Self confidence....

I had a lovely talk with a friend last night, and caught up on lots of news with each other. One piece of news that I passed on to her, which I hadn't mentioned here was that I'd entered a 'Serve' competition last week. The chat room/information group to which I belong ran the competition, hoping to bring back the pride in online serve writing, which is often made fun of.

Yes - it's cyber - and I know too many people who will scorn that. But it's a beautiful way of expressing oneself - the same as we do in our blogs. An online serve isn't supposed to be 'practical and real'......it's more about the expression, the description, the grace portrayed.

There were about ten or eleven serves entered, all performed in the room in front of about forty people. A couple of Doms did serves, a male subbie, some gor serves, and me !! I was just proud that I entered. For me to have the self confidence to do that in a public chat room is a big step.

I performed the serve for a certain Someone - he apparently sat there gob smacked - speechless - open mouthed at it (way to shut a Dom up !!). It wasn't Gor - it was 'me', incorporating things that were personal to us both after our last meet. After the serve, everyone in room was applauding, congratulating etc etc.....one Dom even gave me a standing ovation *grins.

And I won.

And no-one was more surprised than me.

I was so proud just to have entered - winning was the icing on the cake.

*smiles

On the home front, hubby went back to work two weeks ago, then the girls had their easter holidays, so for the last ten weeks I've had somebody at home with me during the day.

On Tuesday the girls went back to school, and the house feels so empty !!!

It's not as if I'm bored (on the very rare occasions when I have nothing to do, I find something) but the house feels like a ghost ship. I've taken to bringing the dogs upstairs for company when I'm in my office - one lies under the desk on top of my feet, the other across the doorway. I think it's a canine conspiracy to makedamn sure they know where I am - lying on my feet so I can't stand up, blocking the door in case I try to make a getaway!!

I'll get used to it again, but at the moment it feels so strange.


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Blogging Awards

'clare sure does belong on this list! We've laughed together, cried together. She did help me to learn so much and she made me think about myself. What I could and could not do. I love her humor, the way she cares. I think clare might be considered a bit hot sometimes by some people, but there is a lot of sweet beneath that hot. I think people can learn from her, she is a fighter and that is a quality I love!'

smiles...lessa nominated me for the Thinking Bloggers award on Monday, and I'm very proud that she did. Bu I have to admit that I had a chuckle at people thinking I'ma bit hot !! *looks down at the pegged breasts photo below....hmmm...yes...well.....lol.



To those mentioned next, if you wish to continue the chain, here are the rules:

1. If, and only if, you get tagged, write a post with links to five blogs that make you think.

2. Link to this post - http://www.thethinkingblog.com/2007/02/thinking-blogger-awards_11.html so that people can easily find the exact origin of the meme.

3. Optional: Proudly display the ‘Thinking Blogger Award’ with a link to the post that you wrote (silver or gold, your choice)

I'm only going to nominate two blogs, because the others which I read regularly which haven't already been nominated are on a private webring, so not generally accesible.

The two Im going to nominate are kaya and subtle slave. Both incredibly strong strong women, both living with their Master 24/7, but such amazingly different people.

kaya has take us through a pain and pleasure filled life, and also shown the depth of the love and commitment in her relationship, and shared day to day struggles with us. subtle slave has documented struggles, joy, the pleasures (?) *grins of labia rings and padlocks.........and given a wonderful insight to her life.

Those are two of the public blogs that I check into every day - they help me to realise how different all situations, and all people are, and it's lovely to see a regular dose of real life BDSM.....not a theory on how 'its supposed to be'.

Than you both for the joy you've given me in reading your blogs, and thank you lessa for the nomination. It meant a lot.

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And the correct answer is?????

Ok.....what is the correct response when your 44 year old, totally nilla husband asks for a special present for his 50th birthday....

....a threesome with another girl?????

a) Grin and say, 'oh yes !! I've loved it every other time I've done it !!'

b) Bring out an address book and flick through it, saying 'nope....she doesn't like giving blow jobs....nope.....she was too shy last time'

c) Blush like crazy, mutter about you wouldn't know how on EARTH to arrange somthing like that and find some really urgent cleaning that needs doing somewhere well away from him !!

Need a clue which one I used??? *grins

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And of course.....

.....they hurt me much more coming off !!!

*grins

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Return to normality....

Hubby went back to work today. It's hard to believe that its seven weeks tomorrow since he had his hip replacement.

I was worried about how we'd cope together - we knew it would be at least six weeks, nd we're not used to being together 24/7 like that. But I have to say, it's been great. We've got closer, we only had one argument in all that time, and we're far sronger for having been through it.

And I'll admit - I really, really missed him today.

We met with my daughter's school on Friday- and a breakthrough !! They're doing an enormous amount to get her the support she needs through her GCSEs this summer. The deputy head to whom I spoke actually gave me the answers that I've been trying to get for months. She was so happy as we left the school....she burst out crying.

And I'm currently planning my next visit with my friend.......I think it's going to be a lot different this time *smiles. My ass is still sore and bruised with lots of welts - I'm amazed that I can still feel it, I rarely get any 'memory pain' *grins. I have some beautiful pictures of our play session, but we're hoping to do more next time. We got so into the play that we forgot to actually take the photos !! We're planning on visiting a friend, so will be a lovely day trip, I get to take a picnic again (strawberries and cream have been requested!!) and we may be making a slight detour *weg.

Things are pretty much on an even keel right now, and I'm fervently hoping that it will stay that way for some time to come.

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