When I'm good I'm very, very good - when I'm bad I'm better! - Mae West

Friday, December 29, 2006

An interesting year....

It's been an interesting year *smiles.

So many changes in my life this year, and it's lovely to be able to look back at some of them on my blog. A blog which I once said I'd never write, because it wasn't 'me'.

I started the year with MP, M:e and MissB - all lovely people who I'm very honoured to know. MP taught me a lot and I'm truly grateful for the time that we spent together - so many wonderful memories to look back on. Thank you Mike - huggggsssssss. M:e is still a big part of my life, and my girls - we're hoping to meet up with her in January (touch wood) and give her the Christmas present we were so happy to find for her !!

Through MissB, in January this year we also met DragonM Sir and lessa - along with other people who I now love to see including Hans and Angel. We went to a play party (my first) where I experienced my first ever electroplay, at DragonM Sir's hands. I was immensely proud of MP doing his shibari demo on MissB, and thoroughly enjoyed my first public play (once I got over my nerves!!!!).

MP and I parted company in the summer, but remain good friends. It was a positive move for both of us, and I'm overjoyed to see how happy he and M:e are. I, of course, now belong to DragonM Sir who is carrying on where MP left off with teaching and mentoring me. He's a wonderful Sir and I'm very lucky to have an amazing sister in lessa. We've had some very memorable times together and I look forward to many more. He's done me a lot of good - he's made me stronger, made me think, made me feel and made me crawl and beg *grins.....he pretty much understands his fox.

I have a truly amazing 'D/s family', and in that family I include friends such as Hans - I really can't imagine going to Holland now without seeing him !! I never in a million years thought that I'd have a Dutch Sir - He's encouraged me in so many many things now, and I'm happily enrolled on a Dutch language course and the proud owner of Dutch grammar books. My faith and trust in him are allowing me to slowly have more faith and trust in myself.....does that make sense??

My vanilla life has changed dramatically too. In January I was at the divorce solicitors, now I've just spent my best ever Christmas with my husband. In many, many ways I've never been happier. Neither have my kids. *smiles.

I think my main New Year resolution is going to be to think less, feel more. I want to stop analysing everything so much and trust my instincts. I can spend too long telling myself what I can't be rather than what I can. I have unbelievably strong memories of standing in front of Sir at Hans' party, him telling me to kneel for him, and me being so desperate to do it but my little voice telling me that I couldn't, for this reason, that reason.....that little voice needs gagging. I need to just trust without second guessing.

I love and trust him and lessa a great deal, and am so glad to be with them. I'm equally glad of my friends and family who are there for me, and to the new friends I met or talked with this year . So to M:e - who will always be my sister, MP, MissB, Hans, Angel, Tiggr, tease, kd, Fian, musi, jr, and everyone else, have a fantastic new year.

To my darling Sir and my amazing, wonderful, gorgeous lessa - all my love, may we make many more memories, and share much more laughter.

Happy New Year
love from
*****fox*****

Sunday, December 24, 2006


Merry Christmas!

Twas the night before Christmas and all through the house
Not a subbie was stirring, all quiet as a mouse
The stockings were hung by the chimney with care
In hope that Master would soon be there

The subbie was nestled all snug in her bed
While visions of tawses danced through her head
Her chains were attached from her bed to her feet
Keeping her legs apart, lest they should meet

When all of a sudden there arose such a clatter
Her Master woke her and said, ‘What’s the matter?’
He’d finally got there, and was enormously pleasured
To see his beloved, the slave he so treasured

As she twisted to see him, turning around
To the side of the bed he came with a bound
He was dressed all in black from his head to his foot
All that lovely soft leather as black as old soot

A bundle of toys he held in his sack
All to be used on her ass, or her back
Clamps, canes, electro – all were in there
Waiting to hurt, on the soft flesh she kept bare

His crop, how it hurt! His flogger – oh she groaned!
After using the paddle she whimpered and moaned
The electro it brought her to dizzy delights
As her loving Master had sub space within his sights

The clamps were attached to her nipples and clit
Pain so intense once he removed it
The cane was laid across her naked behind
Leaving a pattern of welts, which she didn’t mind

After many long hours of pain, and of pleasure
Her Master had tormented and teased her at leisure
He gathered his toys up, it was time to go
He kissed her with passion, so tender and slow

He strolled to his car, to his girl gave a whistle
And away he flew, like the down of a thistle
But she heard him exclaim, as he drove out of sight….

…..Merry Christmas my darling……sexy dreams, sleep tight !!

Saturday, December 23, 2006

Family time....

This past couple of weeks have been filled with family time - I've just come back from my 5th family party in two weeks. Lots of us have birthdays in December, plus we have christmas parties that we go to, so tomorrow is one of the few days where we're all at home, getting ready for Christmas Day.

Tomorrow, I'll be in the kitchen with the girls, preparing food for the big meal. Two different stuffings, bacon and sausage rolls, brandy butters, mince pies, sherry trifle.....the house will smell wonderful. I'll be in my element. Each of my girls has a particular 'speciality' in the kitchen, so that they can show off their contribution and be proud. My older daughter makes the most wonderful bacon and sausage rolls - my younger girl does the trifle !!

I'm lucky, I'll be sharing Christmas Day with my family, by which I don't just mean my husband and children. I also mean Sir, lessa and M:e. Because although they won't physically be with me - both of my sisters are, I believe, already with their families for the holiday - they're with me in my heart and mind. They're all a big part of my life, and never more so than on a day as special as Christmas Day.

I'll certainly be raising a glass of Bailey's to them on Christmas Day - and I'll look forward to sharing one with them in real.

All my love to them all.

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Friday, December 22, 2006

I'm back............

The lovely gentleman in my husband's ICT department has lent me a pc, so for the moment, I'm back to blogging. I've missed being online so much ! Not being able to chat to my family and friends in IM has been awful.

So much has happened this past couple of weeks - my daughter was in the local newspaper, my birthday, her birthday, so day at the races, my husband's office christmas party where I was dressed up so beuatifully and had men staring at my cleavage all night ( can't think why *sweet smiles*).

I'll post properly soon, but for now just a quick hi - I have SO much blog and email reading to catch up on !!!

lots of love

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Tuesday, December 19, 2006

guest posting


for my sweet sister clare... who still can't be online, she has major pc troubles and so far it seems like she is gonna be gone the rest off the year...

just wish I could have chained your pc... working pc that is...

I miss you...lots....

and there's an empty place on my IM contact list...

lessa

Tuesday, December 12, 2006

Problems (by DragonM)

My fox is having some problems with her computer and it will take a few days before everything is fixed. So it will take some days before she can post again.

DragonM

Monday, December 11, 2006

Pride....

This is such a hard posting to write.

I have a stubborn streak. Yes, I know that those of you who know me will be extremely surprised at this news. I hide it well. We're not talking a huge stubborn streak, just a small one - about as wide as the Dartford Tunnel. Or the Channel Tunnel maybe. Well, part of submission is being strong enough to recognise your weaknesses, right?

I get pre-conceived ideas in my head, and once they're there, they're extremely hard to remove.

I had ideas - no, not ideas - beliefs - that I can't be this, I can't be that, I can't do this, I can't do that, about my submission. These beliefs nearly lost me DragonM Sir and lessa, because I wasn't prepared to try to see beyond what I believed.

Sir (and lessa - because it isn't just Him) have given me so much, and allowed me to give so much in return. And the giving is probably better than receiving. My best memories of us all include lessa and I kneeling for Him in France, and seeing His face when He opened His present last week. Priceless.

We've all had long, honest talks this past few days, and basically DragonM Sir and I talked tonight to decide whether we should carry on our relationship. Neither of us could see past the problem we were all facing, although neither of us wanted to lose something so precious, or lose someone we loved very much. And we do love each other - all of us.

Talking, and thinking, then more talking and even more thinking brought me to a conclusion. He loves me, controls me, teaches me, helps me, cares for me, plays with me, and allows me to give Him so much in return. It's all just wrapped up in a different parcel than I'd always envisaged, but He gives me everything I want and allows me to give what I need to give. It would be a massive, massive loss if my small stubborn streak meant that we'd lose all of that.

So I swallowed my pride. I asked Him to keep me. And you have noooooo idea how difficult that was. And He even made me apologise for swearing before He would answer me !! (points out that my stubborn streak is nowhere near as wide as His sadistic streak).

He agreed - that was what He wanted, but He needed me to understand things for myself. And no, it's not a life changing belief, and I'm not comprising myself just to keep Him. I'm opening my mind a bit wider, to try to fit in other possibilities.

Tiggr posted this to me on lessa's blog last week - I know enough of the Dragon to know instinctively that he can and will always provide effortlessly for what you most need... focus on his will, his goals, just trust in him, and in your love. You'll do just fine!. I've re-read that so many times this week.....and it's been just what I needed....thank you *kusssssss.

So huge hugs to Sir and lessa - may we all sleep better now. Thank you for your honesty and your love - it means the world to me.

I think I'll go to bed now.

kusssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss

Just for tease.....

Recipe for Tollhouse Cookies

2 1/4 cups plain flour
1 teaspoon bicarbonate of soda
1 teaspoon salt
1 cup (2 sticks) butter, softened (250 gram)
3/4 cup granulated sugar
3/4 cup dark brown sugar
1 teaspoon vanilla extract
2 large eggs
2 cups Chocolate Chips (or 3 bags)
1 cup chopped nuts

Directions:
PREHEAT oven to 375° F, gas mark 5

COMBINE flour, bicarbonate of soda and salt in small bowl. Beat butter, granulated sugar, brown sugar and vanilla extract in large mixer bowl until creamy. Add eggs, one at a time, beating well after each addition. Gradually beat in flour mixture. Stir in morsels and nuts. Drop by rounded tablespoon onto ungreased baking sheets.

BAKE for 9 to 11 minutes or until golden brown. Cool on baking sheets for 2 minutes; remove to wire racks to cool completely.

I bought a set of US style measuring cups in Tesco for about £2 - made things much easier.

hugggsssssssss - enjoy !! My kids have eaten half of mine already !!

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Sunday, December 10, 2006

Baking day....



I feel the need to bake, something I love to do - it's soothing, and I love sharing the results.

I was given a recipe for Tollhouse Cookies - the huge, chewy American cookies - by a friend in alt, so I've just downloaded the conversion charts (US to UK measurements) so I'm going to spend a happy couple of hours making them with my little one. Along with muffins, brownies and a steak pie.

Wish me luck ! *smiles

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Friday, December 08, 2006

A Big Bear Hug For Lessa......





A big bear hug (or should I say knuffel beer *smiles)for lessa . Thanks for your honesty this past couple of days sweetheart, it meant a lot.

And keep the voucher for a free hug - we can use it any time we've had one of our honest talks.

Love you - a lot

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Thursday, December 07, 2006

101 Things To Before You Die - Sexual !!!!

Ok, as mentioned in my last post, here are some of the relationship/sexual activities listed in the above book.

1. Have a threesome - who was it with?
2. Have 'kinky' sex (gasps!!!!)
3. Have sex in front of someone else
4. Join the mile high club - who with?
5. Have sex with more than two other people - again, who and where?

have sex in the following places -

6. Under the stars
7. On camera/film
8. In an elevator
9. At work
10. Somewhere inappropriate
11. With someone you shouldn't!
12. In your parents bed
13. At a party
14. In a swimming pool
15. In a churchyard
16. In a limousine
17. At the beach
18. In a car

I must be SOOO innocent according to these !!! I've only done....let's see.....number 1 - 3, 10 - 12. Oh and 18.

*blushes

Anyone else less innocent than me ???

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Meme....

This is from the Romantic Mistress website - http://romantic-mistress.blogspot.com/2006/12/another-meme.html. It gave me a smile.....and brought back some memories !! (grins at M:e - I've put my 'things I've done in bold!)

xxx

01. Bought everyone in the bar a drink
02. Swam with wild dolphins
03. Climbed a mountain
04. Taken a Ferrari for a test drive
05. Been inside the Great Pyramid
06. Held a tarantula
07. Taken a candlelit bath with someone
08. Said "I love you" and meant it
09. Hugged a tree
10. Bungee jumped
11. Visited Paris
12. Watched a lightning storm at sea On board my second cruise, leaving Tenerife. Absolutely gorgeous
13. Stayed up all night long and saw the sun rise Several times
14. Seen the Northern Lights
15. Gone to a huge sports game
16. Walked the stairs to the top of the leaning Tower of Pisa
17. Grown and eaten your own vegetables I had a greenhouse, and grew all my own tomatoes, cucumbers, peppers, herbs, carrots, radishes etc
18. Touched an iceberg
19. Slept under the stars
20. Changed a baby's diaper
21. Taken a trip in a hot air balloon
22. Watched a meteor shower
23. Gotten drunk on champagne
24. Given more than you can afford to charity
25. Looked up at the night sky through a telescope
26. Had an uncontrollable giggling fit at the worst possible moment
Hmmmm....many times, but once in the middle of a play session. Thankfully everyone saw the funny side!
27. Had a food fight
28. Bet on a winning horse I liked the horses name !!
29. Asked out a stranger
30. Had a snowball fight
31. Screamed as loudly as you possibly can

32. Held a lamb and a piglet
33. Seen a total eclipse
34. Ridden a roller coaster Whether I wanted to or not, I went on Vogel Rok in Holland
35. Hit a home run
36. Danced like a fool and not cared who was looking
37. Adopted an accent for an entire day
38. Actually felt happy about your life, even for just a moment
39. Had two hard drives for your computer
40. Visited all 50 states
41. Taken care of someone who was drunk Yep - I took care of a drunk friend once - does my shaving his eyebrows WHILE he was drunk make it less of a good thing??
42. Had amazing friends
43. Danced with a stranger in a foreign country Danced with a stranger on a cruise ship at Casablanca
44. Watched wild whales
45. Stolen a sign
46. Backpacked in Europe
47. Taken a road-trip
48. Gone rock climbing
49. Midnight walk on the beach Erm....4.30 in the morning, paddling and getting topless *blushes*
50. Gone sky diving
51. Visited Ireland
52. Been heartbroken longer than you were actually in love
53. In a restaurant, sat at a stranger's table and had a meal with them
54. Visited Japan
55. Milked a cow and a goat
56. Alphabetized your CDs
57. Pretended to be a superhero
58. Sung karaoke Only once at a family party - never again!! (emphasizes the 'never' for Sir's benfit !!)
59. Lounged around in bed all day
60. Played touch football
61. Gone scuba diving
62. Kissed in the rain
63. Played in the mud
64. Played in the rain
65. Gone to a drive-in theater
66. Visited the Great Wall of China
67. Started a business
68. Fallen in love and not had your heart broken
69. Toured ancient sites I went to Pompeii and cried when I got there, on the same holiday as I visited the Trevi Fountain and the Colosseum
70. Taken a martial arts class
71. Played D&D for more than 6 hours straight
72. Gotten married
73. Been in a movie
74. Crashed a party
75. Gotten divorced
76. Gone without food for 5 days
77. Made cookies from scratch
78. Won first prize in a costume contest Cruella de Vil - I made a full Dalmation fur coat
79. Ridden a gondola in Venice
80. Gotten a tattoo
81. Rafted the Snake River
82. Been on television news programs as an expert
83. Got flowers for no reason
84. Performed on stageerm...I performed an Abba concert for my school when I was 12...does that count?? *winks
85. Been to Las Vegas
86. Recorded music
87. Eaten shark
88. Kissed on the first date
89. Gone to Thailand
90. Bought a house
91. Been in a combat zone
92. Buried one/both of your parents
93. Been on a cruise ship
94. Spoken more than one language fluently
95. Performed in Rocky Horror
96. Raised children
97. Followed your favorite band/singer on tour
99. Taken an exotic bicycle tour in a foreign country
100. Picked up and moved to another city to just start over
101. Walked the Golden Gate Bridge
102. Sang loudly in the car, and didnt stop when you knew someone was looking
103. Had plastic surgery
104. Survived an accident that you shouldnt have survived
105. Wrote articles for a large publication I wrote articles for the national publication of a former employer
106. Lost over 100 pounds
107. Held someone while they were having a flashback
108. Piloted an airplane
109. Touched a stingray
110. Broken someones heart
111. Helped an animal give birth
112. Won money on a T.V. game show
113. Broken a bone My little toe on my left foot - nothing major! *grins
114. Gone on an African photo safari
115. Had a facial part pierced other than your ears
116. Fired a rifle, shotgun, or pistol
117. Eaten mushrooms that were gathered in the wild
118. Ridden a horse
119. Had major surgery
120. Had a snake as a pet
121. Hiked to the bottom of the Grand Canyon
122. Slept for more than 30 hours over the course of 48 hours
123. Visited more foreign countries than U.S. states
124. Visited all 7 continents
125. Taken a canoe trip that lasted more than 2 days
126. Eaten kangaroo meat
127. Eaten sushi
128. Had your picture in the newspaper
129. Changed someone's mind about something you care deeply about
130. Gone back to school Did 'A' level, various computer courses and a foundation degree, after several years away from school
131. Parasailed
132. Touched a cockroach
133. Eaten fried green tomatoes
134. Read The Iliad - and the Odyssey
135. Selected one "important" author who you missed in school, and read
136. Killed and prepared an animal for eating
137. Skipped all your school reunions
138. Communicated with someone without sharing a common spoken language139. Been elected to public office
140. Written your own computer language
141. Thought to yourself that you're living your dream
142. Had to put someone you love into hospice care
143. Built your own PC from parts
144. Sold your own artwork to someone who didn't know you
145. Had a booth at a street fair
146. Dyed your hair
147. Been a DJ
148. Shaved your head
149. Caused a car accident
150. Saved someone's life

I have the book '101 Things to do Before You Die'...that's fantastic. It even lists sexual activities !! *wegs

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Tuesday, December 05, 2006

Just in case....




Grins - a fire extinguisher for tonight for my sweet sister and my 'hot' Sir.

*sweet, sweet smiles*

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Christmas decorations




We have a tradition of putting up our christmas decorations the weekend closest to my birthday ie, about the middle of December. But because of my trip to Holland I'd agreed with the girls that we could do the decorations the day before I left...and these pictures show some of the results.

Like everyone else, we have those big bulk boxes of ornaments for the tree, but since my eldest was born we've had another tradition. Each year I buy a special decoration for each of the girls to put on the tree, or they choose one themselves. Over the years this has meant that a lot of the baubles we use have a special meaning for the children, a little piece of history. For instance, the year that they started riding lessons I bought my youngest a little rocking horse to hang on there. Each decoration has special meaning.

Now, we also have Dutch decorations on there. We have two trees, one in each living room, and both now have several meaningful ornaments that lessa and I bought this weekend. Lessa bought each of the children a little Black Peter (part of Dutch folklore) to hang up, and there are others that I chose. We had a wonderful evening last night, adding the new decorations, talking about how christmas is celebrated in Holland. The girls happily munching on the biscuits and chocolates that were sent to them, me enjoying the wonderful rambol cheese and crackers I brought back. I love the fact that the decorations mean something special.

One decoration that is very special to me was a gift from my darling sister. She bought me a beautiful painted teddy bear as my ornament for the tree, in honour of my youngest calling DragonM Sir her 'cuddly teddy bear'. She said, 'there you go Clare, now you have your own Dragon M to hang on the tree!' Gotta love that sis *grins. So DragonM Sir is now hanging on my main tree - the one in the top pic - next to the armchair where I always sit. I'm sure he's keeping an eye on me !! Lol.

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Monday, December 04, 2006

My 'Virgin' OTK



No that's not a misprint......the word 'virgin' on my blog. That photo is evidence of my first OTK spanking, and I think that was the most gentle play I had all weekend !

SO proud !! *grins

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A Dragon M delivery....




The lable that was on the case of wine that was waiting for me when I got back *grins.

That man gets everywhere !!!

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Sunday, December 03, 2006

I think I'm awake...

Ok, I'm awake now. I think.

The whole weekend has been lovely. Necessary talking, lots of time all together, and time with just lessa. Perfect.

Last night we all went to a party at Hans and Angel's house. It was so nice to see them again, I don't think that a trip to Holland would be complete with seeing them now. And Hans mended my ring - the ring that Sir and lessa gave me in the summer had lost a part, which he replaced. It meant so much to have the ring complete again.

When we got to the party, I 'hid' again, not knowing if I could get things straight in my head after all that's happened lately. But Sir left me in no doubt who I belonged to before we even got to the play room. He played with us both at first, including one hell of a strong flogging/spanking session. I'd never had one that hard before. Then after we all relaxed and drank with everyone, He played first with lessa on her own, and then me. My session included a lot of different things including breast bondage (god, those ropes were tight !!), spanking/slapping all over and then the wonderful electro play - using the indirect electro so that the electricty passed through his fingers onto me. I was in heaven!! It was a good thing that I didn't have to ask 'mag ik klaar komen alstublieft'' every time because at number eleven I couldn't even remember my own name let alone how to ask permission to come in Dutch!!!

It was a beautiful evening, and I was so proud to be there as his.

This morning, he woke me quite early (about 9am - we didn't go to bed until about 4!!) and we all had breakfast together. Then he took me down to the soutterain and gave me a 'this will last you until I see you again session'. Very hard play again, kneeling, spanking, crawling, and then somethng he wanted to do in private - he's realised the effect that heat has on me. So, several cigarettes very, very close to a certain part of me, and I was in subbie heaven again. Having to stay so still while he did it, not daring to move while feelings build up in me meant that when I could move...oh my god - I couldn't stop coming. Even after we went upstairs, as soon as he lit a cigarette the feelings flooded back and I was gone again. Several erm....noisy explosions later I actually fell into subspace. I've never experienced all of that before, not being able to stop myself having so many orgasms while he's just looking at me. Not touching....just looking. It totally wiped me out, and a few hours back in bed were definitely in order after he'd gone. Last night we counted to eleven - we (well, he) counted how many this morning...wow...never mind a spank for every year to celebrate my birthday, I think all in all this holiday he gave me an orgasm for each year instead !

I spent a lovely afternoon with lessa, shopping for presents for my girls, and now we're back home having a meal together - possibly with an extra cat loving visitor.

It's been an amazing weekend in so many ways, and I can't thank lessa and Sir enough. I love them both dearly.

But you know one of the highlights of the weekend? At the party last night, Sir had me kneel for him in front of their friends - including Hans and the lovely jr. To do something that means so much to me in front of their friends meant the world to me, and it means even more that he recognised this.

He really does understand his fox.

*smles

Just...

Oh

My

God


Last night, my hardest play ever. Then more play afterwards, getting harder. And today he gave me my 'goodbye' present - even harder play....but incorporating something entirely new. I'm still absolutely amazed, and REAllY need to learn to count in Dutch - and no, not to count spankings, but something entirely different!

I really need to go back to bed now - I'm only half lucid (what do you mean, whats new??), and my legs are still shaking. Will post about the lovely time we had and the wonderful people I met later, but for now let's just say....

....I am NEVER going to be able to watch Sir smoking a cigarette again !!

hugggssssssss

Saturday, December 02, 2006

Oh Lord !!

Oh Lord it's hard to be humble when you're perfect in every way
I can't wait to look in the mirror 'cause I get better lookin' each day
To know me is to love me, I must be a hell of a man
Oh Lord it's hard to be humble, but I'm doin' the best that I can

I used to have a girlfriend but I guess she just couldn't compete
With all these love starved women who keep clamoring at my feet
Well I probably could find me another but I guess they're all in awe of me
Who cares I never get lonesome 'cause I treasure my own company

I guess you could say I am a loner, a cowboy all locked up and proud
Well I could have lots of friends if I wanted, but then I wouldn't stand out in a crowd
Some folks say that I'm egotistical - hell I don't even know what that means
I guess it has something to do with the way that I fill out my skin tight blue jeans


Grins and RUNNNNNNNSSSSSSSS back to the UK !!

Ok, seriously. For christmas I bought lessa some Portmerion china (well, I live in the
Potteries!!) and a book on the castles of England, one of her passions.

I bought Sir a (tiny) plot of land on the Scottish island where his favourite whisky is made - ownership of any land here gives you the legal title of Lord, hence, he is now legally Lord DragonM, Lord of all he surveys!!

*smiles......but we already knew that.

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Falling in love....




Last night I fell in love. A gentleman who looked at me as if I was gorgeous. He settled beside me as soon as we met and hardly moved away. And he did the most amazing things with his mouth !!!

Grins - DragonM Sir is still in my heart. I fell in love with MsB's cat, Bolle. The kittens were lovely (especially the one that isn't Mickey or Jason whose name I can pronounce !!). But Bolle stole my heart. Whe you stroke him he moves his mouth as if he's talking to you. Sadly, I wasn't allowed to cat nap him.

We all had some amazing talks yesterday, and we're so much stronger for it. Yes, we do need to talk more instead of being afraid of hurting each other. We've learnt that - it's a massive learning curve for us all.

We exchanged presents, we hugged, we kissed, we played a bit. But the most important thing we shared was just time. And again, the strength that Sir gives me allowed me to do something that I thought I'd never do.

Being with Sir and lessa, and with RB, is like being at home. And after the misunderstanding between lessa and I was sorted out, we returned to feelingstrong, secure and loved.

Now that really did feel like coming home.

kusssssssssssssssssssss

Friday, December 01, 2006

Today....

....I was reminded of a lot of things. Lots of talking, all necessary and all worthwhile. Reminded of how wonderful sister hugs are - I'd missed lessa a lot.

And then a reminder of how hard he can spank, cane and flog...and my first OTK spanking! The photos showed a delightful shade of bright red.

And reminded how effective his 'Dom' face is !! That weak at the knees feeling was DEFINITELY there.

And now, off to a reminder of an old friendship.....visiting the current 'caretaker' of lessa's two beautiful kittens, including 'the one who isn't Mickey or Jason!!' *winks at M:e (people - don't even ATTEMPT to understand that !!)

hugs and kisses