Self confidence....

I had a lovely talk with a friend last night, and caught up on lots of news with each other. One piece of news that I passed on to her, which I hadn't mentioned here was that I'd entered a 'Serve' competition last week. The chat room/information group to which I belong ran the competition, hoping to bring back the pride in online serve writing, which is often made fun of.

Yes - it's cyber - and I know too many people who will scorn that. But it's a beautiful way of expressing oneself - the same as we do in our blogs. An online serve isn't supposed to be 'practical and real'......it's more about the expression, the description, the grace portrayed.

There were about ten or eleven serves entered, all performed in the room in front of about forty people. A couple of Doms did serves, a male subbie, some gor serves, and me !! I was just proud that I entered. For me to have the self confidence to do that in a public chat room is a big step.

I performed the serve for a certain Someone - he apparently sat there gob smacked - speechless - open mouthed at it (way to shut a Dom up !!). It wasn't Gor - it was 'me', incorporating things that were personal to us both after our last meet. After the serve, everyone in room was applauding, congratulating etc etc.....one Dom even gave me a standing ovation *grins.

And I won.

And no-one was more surprised than me.

I was so proud just to have entered - winning was the icing on the cake.

*smiles

On the home front, hubby went back to work two weeks ago, then the girls had their easter holidays, so for the last ten weeks I've had somebody at home with me during the day.

On Tuesday the girls went back to school, and the house feels so empty !!!

It's not as if I'm bored (on the very rare occasions when I have nothing to do, I find something) but the house feels like a ghost ship. I've taken to bringing the dogs upstairs for company when I'm in my office - one lies under the desk on top of my feet, the other across the doorway. I think it's a canine conspiracy to makedamn sure they know where I am - lying on my feet so I can't stand up, blocking the door in case I try to make a getaway!!

I'll get used to it again, but at the moment it feels so strange.


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